Struggling

Oohhhhhhhh this momma is struggling... You'd think that being so close to the end I'd have had *plenty* of practice at being patient, especially since this is the third time around, you'd think I'd have this all worked out. Oh. my. word. There is not an ounce of patience left in me! If there ever was any to start with ;-) I am so ready to travel... or to just know *when* I'm going... but this endless waiting, the 'we could find out today, or tomorrow, or the day after, or not for another 3 weeks' is more than I can handle. I just want to be with my son. How crazy is that, for me, some woman who has never met this precious boy, to long for him *so* much, to feel as if a part of me is missing, this piece I've never met... I am trying to figure out how to get off of this emotional rollercoaster that is every day; I wake up in the morning hoping that today might be the day we get our FINAL approval, our approval to travel to bring our son home, only to have that hope snuffed out by about 4:30, when I haven't heard boo from our agency, and then to start all over again the next day... and the next day... and the next day. Today marks day 9 of waiting for our Travel Approval.

Soooo since we *could* find out aka TRAVEL TO CH*NA AT A MOMENTS NOTICE, I've been trying to work through my list of To-Do's. Today I crossed one of those things off my list, JW's bear. All my kids have their own bear with a little something sown onto it by yours truly. When I first sat down to do JW's I had no idea what to 'draw'. It was a no-brainer for my amazing hubby, who piped up with 'the frog', from the infamous yellow shirt, that both of our precious boys were wearing in their referral pictures... although they were not at the same orphanage. hmmmm.

JW's bear

 JW's referral picture 

JJ's referral picture 

 Grateful for prayers that we -ahem *I*- finish strong in this final stretch before it all really starts.